"I will survive!"
I got the call today I didn't want to hear, but I knew that it would come...
Survive? Yes, you will, my darling. If I have anything to do with it. I love my snarky little bitch.
And on that note...
I just watched the "Sex and the City" movie trailer. God, that brought back memories...
Sparky (bless his soul) and I would watch it together on a regular basis, never missed it. At that time, I felt like I was a much poorer version of Samantha. Wild woman. Out at all hours. Sparky would wait for me, for our times together. Had I known how short that time together would be, I'd have never left home.
On SATC nights, I would order pizza, open a box (haha) of wine. Those were the original "family time"s. Just me and ol' Sparkster. Oh, all that's happened between then and now. My family is much larger now, but then, so much smaller because he is gone.
I wish Spark was around to see it all now. His momma settled down really quickly when he got sick. He knew how much I loved him. I hope. I wish I could make sure the babies know every day, but hey, they are dogs. Do they understand? The looks in their eyes tell me that they do.
I spent part of the evening just loving on Sadie and playing with her. It's hard to imagine she has any health issues...she is still my strong girl. I cried for over an hour last night, and I know that nothing lasts forever. People die. Pets die. Things change, we move on.
It's been five years (almost) since my Sparky left me. I thought at that time my heart could never mend, that I couldn't ever get past the hurt that his death dealt me. Eventually, I did deal with it.
There is a place in my living room that is totally dedicated to him. For a long time, I had no photos but those with him in them, or me with him. My mother once commented that I had three other dogs. I just didn't want to take anything away from how much I loved, no, still love him.
These days, I feel like he looks over the babies like a guardian angel. He is the king of kings, King Sparky.
Now I am facing a similar illness for one of the babies, and it hits too close to home. I always knew they'd never be with me for all time, but to really think about one of them being sick is hard to take.
"All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning again."
And again, it seems.
8 comments:
Oh no. Just keep lovin on them. That's really all you can do.
You'll know when the time comes to let her go, and in the interim, she'll love just continuing to be with you.
Sadie is going to be fine. I demand it.
Oh sorry, she is still all energetic and acting fine. I was just drunk and depressed and that damned song got to me when I heard it on the trailer. This is probably treatable with meds and if she has to take them for the rest of her life, so be it. I'm sorry my maudlin messy self made you think she was lying on her deathbed. Drama Queen, yes.
Sadie is going to be all right, because I'm going to make sure she is.
I'm so glad she's going to be alright!!!
Yay! I am glad she is going to be okay. It's so scary when one of your *babies* is sick.
Oh well that's great news!
Hopefully, whatever it is she has, the snark will kill it.
Poor babies, it sucks they have to go through this crap. All they want to do is to be with you. So I try to hang with them as much as I can when they get old, and give them whatever they want to eat! Well, except, you know. Chocolate. xo
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